Why I started

I do not feel really well lately. I am constantly thinking about the things I do not have, instead of what I have. And I can not find the button to turn that feeling around. It is making me terribly sad all the time and I am starting to go back to a place I never want to go back again.

So I said to myself yesterday “What do I need to do to think about the positive things in my life again?” I didn’t know the answer. So after some time I wasn’t anywhere near a solution. I started to think again after a short break and then I put one solution on paper. Writing down things that are going well in my life could be a solution. Just making a list of all the positive things happening in my life would maybe give me a more postive feeling. Then I found another solutions. Writing down my feelings and writing them away from myself would be a solution. Then I started thinking and I noticed that I did that before. It was the time I couldn’t find a way of outing my feelings without relatives or people knowing. I started my blog. It was an outlet for my feelings. I had the feeling that people would know, because I was writing a blog and people who want to could read it, but it also gave me some sense of safeness, because people I know didn’t know that I was writing my feelings down and posting it.

I think that blogging helped me a lot and I think I need to write more again. I need to write and make blog before it is Sunday. I noticed from myself that I forget it more easily and when it is busy I do not write one even though it is such an outlet for me and I need to do it even thought it is busy.

I made an agreement with myself to write more. And make a good blog each Sunday. I also made the agreement to post the blog on My Trending Stories to. I tend to forget that as well and I do not want that.

So that is my agreement and I am going to try to keep it this time.

For now I sign off.

SoZing stops Zinging x

Books make me homesick

“Books have a way of making 

you homesick for a place

you’ve never been to.”


When I wrote this quote I could totally relate to it. When I truly love a book I will go in to the story with everything I have. I shut myself of from everything that is going on around me and I jump in the book completely. That doesn’t happen quite often but when it does it will be a book that I will read for many more times.

I like books more than films. Because when you read a book you can put your imagination in it. You can decide how the surroundings look, how a person looks. It is all from yourself. And there will be nobody that can take that away from you. No one can steal it from you. It is a little part from yourself. And I do not think there are much things you can keep for yourself these days. Everything needs to be said. You get so much information everyday it is necessary for yourself to have some escape. For me books are my escape. I read every day. I don’t know what I would be doing if books didn’t exist.

My teacher ones told me that everyone has a destined book. A book that you read or listen to for the first time and that will make you like reading. Some people will have it from the day the listen to a book and for some people that book will come on their path when they are eighty, but everyone will experience it once (if you have books in your life). I had that moment when I was in primary school. I read a book where so much happened that wasn’t true that it made me read on and on, because I wanted to know what would happen next. But it was also a book with a lot of different characteristics so I could relate to a lot of different characters in the book. It was the first book I had finished within three days. That won’t happen if I do not like the book. That book that was my destined book. It was the first book where I was jumping in the story seeing everything happening in front of me.

I had a friend that never had it until last year. He was 21 in that moment. I was astonished. How is it possible that he never had experienced it before like I had. That was the time my teacher told about the destined book. It made me think that it is logical that reading is boring then when you’ve never experienced it like I do with lots of stories.

I hope that you already have found your destined book. Or that you will find it soon. Reading is so much fun when you see it all happening as a film in front of you. But in your head. Your self-made film. A little piece of your own that no one will ever take from you.

Your own story with the words from and author.

But that also makes it hard when the book and the story is over. I had that multiple times now. When I like a book a lot and I am at the end it always takes some time before I close the book. Almost scared and sad that it is over. Getting a little ‘homesick’ to a place I’ve never been.  To people that I never have met and never will meet because they are ficton. They do not excist.

Weird isn’t it? That you can get so attached to something that never will be reality. But also so beautiful in its own way.

For now I sign off.

SoZing stops Zinging x


2017 New Year



2017 is here and I am excited to start this new year. Last year I did a blog post about my new year resolutions, but as I got further in 2016 I noticed that I did not keep the promise to myself to do the resolutions I had. So this year I decided that I am not going to have any new year resolutions. I am just going to make the most of the life I have now and enjoy it as much as I can, because I want to see the world as it is this year and not as how I want it to be.

I think it is nice to look at all the things I already have achieved and I want to enjoy that. Plus all the nice moments I get this year.

But that does not take a way that I wish that your new year resolutions, if you have any, will be achieved by yourself. I hope that you’ll do better than me last year.

I wish you a Happy New Year and a meaningful new year.

For now I sign off.

SoZing stops Zinging x




The best smelling store in the world

First of all I wanted to apologize for the three weeks without a blog. I was sick and after that really busy. Sorry but  this BlogSunday I have a long Blog for you. I think I have never written such a long blog, but it is defiantly worth reading. I hope you like it!!

When I was fifteen I was introduced to a store named Lush and since that day it is one of my favorite stores. When I ask people if they know Lush and they say no, I’ll always explain it as ‘The best smelling store in the world‘.  I absolutely love Lush.

Lush is a store that sells products for you skin, hair, face, teeth etc. I always by bubblebars and bathbombs there. And the best thing is that everything smells amazing. Everything has a unique scent and it is a scent that is strong but also subtle at the same time. The different scents that Lush has, linger on for a long time and that is one of the things I like about Lush. Normally when you buy a body wash or a shampoo, the scent will go away quickly, but with the products that Lush sells it isn’t the case. I have a shampoo from Lush where the scent of it stays in my hair for at least  a day when my hair is dry. And I have never had that before with any shampoo.

Another thing that is good about Lush, is that they are against animal testing, and the products are vegetarian. The side on that is that it will make the products more expensive than in a ‘normal’ store, but it’s all worth the money. Because it has not been tested on animals, it is vegetarian and the scents are amazing and with linger around you for a long time, which is a good thing.

The fourth thing about Lush products is that they are handmade. I think that that makes the products smell so good! and it is also a factor to the price of the products. But as I already said, it is really worth your money.

The next thing that is really nice about Lush, is that they have a permanent collection but they also have theme collections. Now they are having Halloween/Autumn and some stores already have some Christmas items. I think it is nice that they have themed items, because then it is fun to stop by when you see one. I do not have a Lush near my house, so every time when I come by a Lush I shop there and buy at least one thing. The last time I went to Lush was in Oberhausen (Blog about Oberhausen: Blog Oberhausen). They did not have all the Halloween items that are out from Lush, but they did have some cool Christmas items.

I will let you see some of my favorite items from Lush that are there permanently and after that some themed items.

the first ones are called brightside and  the comforter

Brightside: When you’re chewing on life’s gristle, don’t grumble, give a whistle! Hop in the bath with one of these uplifting bubble bars, Siimg_1213cilian mandarin, bergamot and tangerine essential oils to help you look on the bright side of life! Its jazzy bright colours will create magnificent orange bath water, and the sunny citrus fragrance is sure to leave you jolly and refreshed.

The Comforter: Sometimes you just need to shut yourself off from the outside world under a blanket of fruity foam that will put you back in the right frame of mind to face the world. This bar is supersized, so you’ll only need to crumble half a bar under your tap to make enough bubbles for a long, comforting soak. Cassis absolute gives a distinctive blackcurrant fragrance, while bergamot adds an uplifting note.

These two are the ones I always buy, because they smell amazing and you can break one of them in four, so you can have four baths with one of those bubble bars.

Then there are some autumn and christmas items I love. img_1219

The first one is sparkly pumpkin: For a magical evening, our Sparkly Pumpkin Bubble Bar will help
you conjure up a mountain of mystical bubbles. Nicola gives us a spooktacular recipe for brewing a bathtub full of juniper berry and lime essential oils that will leave your skin naturally soft and delightfully scented.


Then the christmas items.IMG_1226.jpeg

First one is father christmas: Sweet surrender. A festive bomb to bring Santa’s presence into the bath. Once you pop this jolly bomb in your bath, you’ll be able to soak away the hours in sweet waters as the blushing red of Santa’s cheeks fizz away to reveal a vivid, holly green center. All we want for Christmas is this Santa, baby!

ThIMG_1223.jpege second one is golden wonder: A wonder to behold. Fancy an uplifting cocktail? Cognac and zesty lime oils get this bath party started with mood-brightening scents while sweet orange oil refreshes the senses. In the water, this present-shaped fizzer unwraps itself to reveal glittering golden luster and a sparkling turquoise explosion. Don’t wait until Christmas day to bathe yourself in festive luxury.


And the last bathbomb but not the least neIMG_1217.jpegver mind the ballistics: Take it for a spin. These aren’t ingredients for anybody else except yourself. Lime and sweet wild orange oils are fresh and peachy on the nose, exciting the senses and shaking up your mood. There’s no time for apathy in the bath, so this anarchic bath bomb fizzes and rolls and spews color with a no-holds-barred energy. Fair trade cocoa butter melts alongside fresh bananas to soften both the water and your skin. You’ll want to put this one on repeat.

I also have a shampoo from Lush that smells amazing and the scent stays in my hair for a really long time. I am talking about Daddy-O-Packaging.pngdaddy-o shampoo. Daddy-O works to add volume and s
hine to your hair. It’s the lemon and organic lime juice which allow the cuticles to lie flat and reflect more light, helping the hair to shine. We’ve created an infusion from toothed wrack seaweed and organic lemons, that cleanses and softens. Extra virgin coconut oil hydrates the hair, whilst fine sea salt gets to work by to softening and giving body to your hair. What makes this extra special is that it can revive your silver and blonde tones.


Those products are my absolute favorites. I love all the sweet scents, but there are so much more things to choose from. If you ever see a Lush store and you have never been to one before I would defiantly suggest that you take a look around in the store.

I hope that this blog will make up for the three weeks without a blog.

For now I sign off.

SoZing stops Zinging x


Emotional Friday

Last friday something at school happened that opened my eyes again in quite a long time. Something that made me think about myself and how some people cannot deal with a situation like that at all.

Last friday I had the subject music at my school. We got the assignment that we needed to choose two songs and play them on instruments. We already chose one song, which was a children’s song, but we still needed to choose one other song. I wanted and english song and a couple in my little group wanted a dutch song. We then came to a song that had english and dutch. Matt Simons song To the water is also recorded together with a dutch singer names Marco Borsato. The song is then called in dutch ‘Breng me naar het water’. We thought it was a good choice because it was an emotional song and a somewhat slow song, which was good because our other song was more upbeat. But when we played it to look if it was doable, two classmates (also my friends) came in our room after each other and one told us to shut it of and the other also told her reason why to not play it. When I thought about it I also said to my little group that I understood what they ment, because it is such an emotional song. But two in my group didn’t understand at all. They were flabbergasted and just started to shoot at one of them that it was strange and weird. One actually said: “If the song is on the radio you are also not going to call the radio dj right” and when I heard that I was literally shocked and I really didn’t know what I needed to say at that moment. Afterwards I think I just needed to say to her to not be so unrespectful to the others, but at the moment I was flabbergasted. The atmosphere was really tense and I said to them that I was sorry and that it was stupid of me not to think about that first, because I have the exact same thing with another song. After that everything was good again between us, but those other two still had some tension between them. One of my friends asked if they needed to talk about it to the person that said that about the radio dj. I told her that it was a good thing to talk about it, but that it maybe was a good idea to do it a bit later because the frustration and emotions were pretty high still. Another friends agreed with me so she decided to do it after the next class. We also talked a bit more and I apologized again and it was totally fine.

When our next class was over one of my friend got to my classmate and told her that she wanted to talk because she still had a not okay feeling. And then something happened that I couldn’t understand. My classmate said that it she was feeling the same but she couldn’t talk at the moment because she was going to eat with another of our classmates (the same girl who also couldn’t understand) somewhere in town at a fast food place and they just left. I wasn’t there when it happened but when I heard it I was so pissed. It is such an emotional thing that happened so much sadness that we as a little group created and I just couldn’t and still cannot understand that you can react like that. It is just shameful and not okay to do that.

I learned from friday that I need to look out with what I choose. And I know that those to girls do not have any empathy for the feelings for someone else and I think that it is something that we all should have. Now were in the weekend and on Mondays and Tuesdays we all have our internship, so there are now four days going over it and it is still not talked out by them and that is something that I think is not okay. I learned from my parents that you always need to talk things out before you go to bed, or before you go away if it is not your home, because there is always a small chance you will never see those people again. So please just talk things like this out before you leave. Even the smallest of things. Talk things through and do not lay it down.

For now I sign off.

SoZing stops Zinging x

Rainy Days

Today is one of those days that are pretty dreadful. It already rains the whole day. It is grey outside and I am wishing that I could see the sun once today. It is also a sunday and a sunday means that tomorrow will be busy. I have my apprentenship on Mondays and Tuesdays and they are always fun but it is also exhausting.

So today isn’t really the best of days.

These last months of the year are also always busy and exhausting because of all the birthdays, two dutch celebrations and of course christmas. Those celebrations make my internship also extremely busy and at college it also means it is busier.

This all makes it pretty stressful and I notice it a lot. I have so much stress. And I notice by myself that I want to do everything in perfection and that also results in stress. A lot of my friends already told me that not everything has to be perfect and that I shouldn’t be so critical to myself. But that is just something that happens when I get stressed.

I just need to learn to see a cloudy, rainy, grey day as something that will eventually go away. I need to learn that stress will go away at some point.

For now I sign off.

SoZing stops Zinging x

My Trending Stories

A bit more than a month ago, I got an email from My Trending Stories. They told me in that email that they saw my blog and liked it a lot. In that email they asked me if I wanted to have an account on their site and post blog posts on there. At first I was a bit hesitant and I did not know if I wanted to do that. I also had a lot of questions about it. Of course it was amazing to hear from another site that they liked my blog, but I wanted to completely sure if it was something I wanted to do.

So I went on a little investigation. And I found out what their site was like and who they were. I also emailed them back with some questions about general stuff, what they expected from me, who they exactly were etc.

After I got an email back with every question answered, I was pretty sure that I wanted to take the gamble and start an account there.

So now I have also a blog on My Trending Stories.

First I thought I would just blog here on sozing.wordpress.com and then have a little bit of the blog on My Trending Stories referring to here if people wanted to read the whole blog. But now I came to the conclusion that I will also post other blogs on there to.

So I will be posting a blog here every Sunday, and then I will post a bit of it on My Trending Stories saying that if people want to read the whole blog the can read it here. But I will also post different blog posts on My Trending Stories once in a while.

So if you want to also read blogs of mine on My Trending Stories then I have a link right here: https://mytrendingstories.com/en/ Just type in the search bar sozing and you can read the blog posts I have put on there.

I will have two blogs from now on. I won’t stop here and this will stay my main focus at the moment. My trending stories will be a site blog at the moment. But I am really excited to have two different blogs.

Hopefully I have informed you enough and understandable.

(This Sunday I will have a blog on My Trending Stories saying Hello to the World and I will tell how I started blogging to where I am now!)

For now I sign off.

SoZing stops Zinging x